ओह well

I am really stressed out and tired. I don't know why I let myself get this way. Things could be so much worse but instead I intend to make them even worse. I love my life but the hardships sometimes make for an interesting stress er. I don't like the word "wait" I think it means rejection. But it doesn't. Its just my perception. I need to realize that things come and go and that nothing is ever stuck in waiting. What if it turns out I don't even want it. What then?